The Craft of Living

During my last trip to abudhabi I had some alone time which is not a usual for me when Im abroad. But being alone and doing things all by myself has taught me a couple of things about myself and my likes and dislikes: 1. I'm old when I'm alone 2. I'm not a lone traveler 3.I'm very emotionally dependent on my husband and kid 4. I can cry so easily when it comes to family even if I'm in public 5. My mind keeps on repeating words that make me nostalgic... As if I'm yearning for tears. 6. Childhood songs are painful when you listen to them away from loved ones 7. I can never move away from my family. 8. Travel is all about companionship. 9. People can have a completely different side to them when they are far from their home town. 10. I try to deny it to myself but I sometimes care about what people think of me. Especially if I feel misunderstood. I try so hard to correct the misconception to the point of actually making the person infront me feel that I ...

Everytime I feel bad about something I talk myself out of it. I look for the brighter side... I look for the excuse that made what I want not come my way... I cry it out... Bottom line..I talk to myself. But feelings are sometimes just new... They are ugly you don't wanna even name them with their real names. You don't wanna believe that you could actually feel this way. I start searching in my head for things that will disperse the thoughts that bring these feelings... But logic just melts. It's like you're reading through a book looking for answers quickly and someone keeps on pouring water over your head to keep you cold and wet and with a blurry sight that keeps you from reading on. Do i need some alone time? To focus on the "reading"? Or do I need to get busy to get my mind off thinking? It feels sick to leave the feeling inside without breaking it down and dissolving it to something comprehendible and bearable. Which brings me to wonder... W...

How grand is it to have some one look up at you and feel "Wooow..she's my my hero." What would you do if someone is always looking out for you.. following you..wants to be like you. Someone who feels that you are the one person that will keep you safe from harm and will fly you out of your dispairs. I see it. I recently saw it in a little girl looking up at her older sister as if she's miss glamour...miss perfect. She checks if her sister has something before she gets her own... Her food..her toy...her gift. "Where's my sisters thing?" She doesn't enjoy her toy if she doesn't make sure theres one for her superwoman. Now the question is... If I am the hero of that little sister of mine... What would I do? If it was me... I would wanna be that person she really sees. I would wanna be superoman. Now how can someone miss on such an opportunity. The opportunity of influencing someone's life like that. How would you miss on making a positive ...