The Craft of Living

These days im not too happy. The only happiness comes from leens accomplishments. Though simple but quite some milestones. I try not to think about anything that can depress me but sometimes i cant help it. So instead i try to think of all the things i have rather than ponder at the things i dont have. but sometimez the " not good at anything " feeling just gets the best of us and we are just plain lazy to do anything about it.:( oh well... things r gonna get better. Or thats what my mind tellls me right now. I chose to believe it today

Have you ever felt like you're standing still and everything and everyone around you is moving quickly past you? Like when we stand on the beach right on the shore when the waves rush past your feet and then retreat pulling the sand from under you feet. When it makes you feel like your out of balance and like falling on your behind? Yeah.. thats how i feel. That and a knot in my stomache that makes me feel like puking. Yeah, ive always been taught that one of the things that shows you are stronger than others is that your psychological state doesnt effect your physical state. And i think i have proved to myself that nothing... no matter how horrible it is can effect me physically unless i literally fall flat down! But today is the first day that i feel like i'm not that girl who could do ANYTHING. Today is the first day i feel dumb, helpless and sick... Today is the first day i feel worthless.