It's me...

Have you ever felt like you're standing still and everything and everyone around you is moving quickly past you? Like when we stand on the beach right on the shore when the waves rush past your feet and then retreat pulling the sand from under you feet.
When it makes you feel like your out of balance and like falling on your behind?

Yeah.. thats how i feel.

That and a knot in my stomache that makes me feel like puking.

Yeah, ive always been taught that one of the things that shows you are stronger than others is that your psychological state doesnt effect your physical state. And i think i have proved to myself that nothing... no matter how horrible it is can effect me physically unless i literally fall flat down!

But today is the first day that i feel like i'm not that girl who could do ANYTHING. Today is the first day i feel dumb, helpless and sick...

Today is the first day i feel worthless.

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