It's so dark out there!
Im so sad. The amount of sadness around me today is overwhelming.
Why do people have to endure such sadness and confusion?
Why is it that some people see things so vaguely?
Why are people so depressed?
Why are humans so weak?
Why are people popping anti-depressents like tictacs?
Has life become so unbearable? Has all their strength to fight back fade?
Why would their friends make it worse for them? Is it because they too are depressed?
I dont see it? Is my life so perfect compared to theirs? Is my life so perfect at all?
WHat is it that makes a difference between people being depressed and going down that pit and others who are depressed but dont let the feeling invade their sense of security and their zest for life?
What is it that makes that difference?
Is it religion? or does religion just keep you from committing suicide.
Is it a new look that you make? or is that just the superficial fixing method?
Is it people's support? Even though i think depressed ones listen to no one but their own minds and thoughts.
Is it the activities that fill up your time schedule? Or is that just keeping your mind off things before you go home and lay your head on your pillow?
What are these demons? What on earth can make someone so very depressed? Isn't everything relative?
Divorce... one door closes while another one opens!
Death of someone close to you... Wont time pass and we'll eventually see those loved ones again?
Career problems... who said we'll stay in the same position forever. Who knows what opportunities the wind will blow.
Sickness... Dont we have faith that whatever we endure only washes away more of our sins? And wont we all die eventually?
Maybe we should step out of our own pictures at times. Detach ourselves from whatever we are so emotionally indulged in.
Why arent we going to psychiatrists if we need help...and what are psychiatrists really doing for us? Do they just listen to us? Is that all we need? Or is there something else they do.
Is anyone reading this a psychiatrist.. or has been to one at some point in life to tell us what is it that they do to help?
And while you're at it.. can you explain why people feel so ashamed that they go to pyschiatrists? Do they feel weak? Dont they feel vulnerable already? Cant they give one more option a shot like everything else they did?
Instead of coloring your hair or changing its cut, or getting a dress style that you never wear, or playing a new sport or meditating or praying more often or indulge yourself in reading or in playing or in drinking... cant you try talking to a proffessional person?
I dont know when i'll stop asking so many questions... but i dont have any answers yet! And i'm not sure ill get any either!!
Why do people have to endure such sadness and confusion?
Why is it that some people see things so vaguely?
Why are people so depressed?
Why are humans so weak?
Why are people popping anti-depressents like tictacs?
Has life become so unbearable? Has all their strength to fight back fade?
Why would their friends make it worse for them? Is it because they too are depressed?
I dont see it? Is my life so perfect compared to theirs? Is my life so perfect at all?
WHat is it that makes a difference between people being depressed and going down that pit and others who are depressed but dont let the feeling invade their sense of security and their zest for life?
What is it that makes that difference?
Is it religion? or does religion just keep you from committing suicide.
Is it a new look that you make? or is that just the superficial fixing method?
Is it people's support? Even though i think depressed ones listen to no one but their own minds and thoughts.
Is it the activities that fill up your time schedule? Or is that just keeping your mind off things before you go home and lay your head on your pillow?
What are these demons? What on earth can make someone so very depressed? Isn't everything relative?
Divorce... one door closes while another one opens!
Death of someone close to you... Wont time pass and we'll eventually see those loved ones again?
Career problems... who said we'll stay in the same position forever. Who knows what opportunities the wind will blow.
Sickness... Dont we have faith that whatever we endure only washes away more of our sins? And wont we all die eventually?
Maybe we should step out of our own pictures at times. Detach ourselves from whatever we are so emotionally indulged in.
Why arent we going to psychiatrists if we need help...and what are psychiatrists really doing for us? Do they just listen to us? Is that all we need? Or is there something else they do.
Is anyone reading this a psychiatrist.. or has been to one at some point in life to tell us what is it that they do to help?
And while you're at it.. can you explain why people feel so ashamed that they go to pyschiatrists? Do they feel weak? Dont they feel vulnerable already? Cant they give one more option a shot like everything else they did?
Instead of coloring your hair or changing its cut, or getting a dress style that you never wear, or playing a new sport or meditating or praying more often or indulge yourself in reading or in playing or in drinking... cant you try talking to a proffessional person?
I dont know when i'll stop asking so many questions... but i dont have any answers yet! And i'm not sure ill get any either!!
Comments
As to why we have to endure it... your guess is as good as mine. I can address a few things based on personal experience.
Anti-depressants like tictacs? Because people want a quick fix. I would always suggest meeting with a councilor or psychiatrist type before asking your regular doctor for meds. A person may need the meds, but it is best to try other avenues first.
Friends can make it worse because often they do not understand. I have heard "Why don't you just snap out of it? C'mon, cheer up!" from many people. Also, it is hard to know what to say to someone who is in the throws of depression. And the person who is depressed often can't articulate their needs to others.
I have a great life, but sometimes, even with the medication, the black dog of depression will still get me (and the hypo-mania, but I am just addressing the depression right now). Fortunately I have a shrink just a phone call away, a husband who can get me to tell him what I need, and some wonderful non-judgmental friends.
What makes a difference? Well, pretty much all of those things you listed. It just depends on what works for the individual. And don't discount the superficial fixing. Fake it until you make it really does work for some people.
As for the demons... the same situation (divorce, death, etc.) effects people in different ways. That's all there is too it. Like one person being afraid of spiders (or clowns - clowns freak me out!) and another person is fine with them.
My shrink (psychiatric mental health nurse practitioner to be precise) helps me put things in perspective, she teaches how to recognize the beginnings of a depressive or hypo manic episode and what to do when one begins. She works with me to find the right mix of medication that keeps me stable. Monitors said medications, talks with me about my life and helps me to figure out how to heal past hurts (the kind that eat at you, that haunt you, that you stuff way down so you don't have to deal with them but then end up bleeding into all aspects of your current life). She rocks.
There isn't as much of a stigma with depression these days (wish I could say the same about B.P.) - if you handle it in "socially approved" ways. Meds are fine, seeing a councilor is fine. But yah, the term "psychiatrist" still doesn't fly with most people. Believe me, it's annoying. Psychiatrist = crazy. Crazy = contagious. No one wants to catch the crazy! :)
Anyway, this is really far too long, sorry. Just touched on a subject I have far too much of an opinion on.
Thanks again
We're humans and we're different. We're emotional beings, we have highs and lows and they shouldn't necessarily be similar.
Our background, the way we were raised, current circumstances, past experiences, self esteem, people we are surrounded by and many other things contribute to the way we deal with depression and how long it takes us to snap out of it.
So yes, going to a shrink might work for me but not for you. Playing a sport would work for you but not me. Our make up is totally different that we can't really have a standard formula that will work for everyone all the time.
Personally when I'm depressed there's very little that anyone at all can do. It's totally up to me and only me to turn things around for myself. And the solution sometimes lies in the simplest of things. Like taking a walk in the park, or talking to a complete stranger or watching a good movie! That's just my perspective on this issue:)
I have been on so many blogs and there is so much sadness...this is only one side of the coin, I know it's not all about baby loss, but it alone is depressing, seeing all the sadness.
Anti-depressants were a regular for me until I got pregnant believe it or not. Now that I look back at everything that's happened to me in the last 10 months, I cannot say that what I was going through before was harder than losing my son and being at the brink of death, but my husband was adamant that I don't even think about closing off myself and going on meds again.
I know this is not the reality for everyone, and life throws so many curves that we cannot always know what is happening to the body.
I personally feel that a lot of depression is chemical imbalance and then trauma, or a combination of both, as was my case.
But I don't know when we rech our peak, when it is too much, or why we ever have to get to the point where we can't function anymore.
That's been my experience thus far.