Life Without Anticipation

Suffocating. Strangling. Irritating. Gloomy. Boring.

Thats how it feels when there isnt a simple future goal to look forward to. Or an event that your can wait for. Or a happy moment that you are so anticipating.

Im so dull i cant even write this. I feel sick! Id rather spend my day sleeping or something.. but DUH...... impossible. Try sleeping with a 2 year old wide awake in the house and there's no one there but........ YOU!

I cant even think of something of something to cheer me up.

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